As a semi new book blogger, I have dealt with this frequently, although it's not as bad as it was in the beginning. ARC envy can be awful and it can cause a blogger to feel like crap, to feel like they aren't good enough or to even feel like they aren't ever going to get where they want to be. I have yet to meet a single book blogger who hasn't dealt with the green eyed monster.
Getting ARC's/e-ARC's are a huge boost for any blogger because it means that the publishers want you to read and review the book. When those books start arriving in the mailbox or in the emails and those bloggers start posting about them on Twitter or their blogs, it's hard for those of us who aren't getting that super coveted ARC/e-ARC. I mean yes of course I am so happy for my blogger friends when they get those highly coveted books, but I won't lie, a twinge of jealousy always appears for me.
Not feeling good enough has been something I have dealt with in my personal life as well as my blogging life. But I have to remember a few things. Not everyone can receive every ARC/e-ARC. Publishers go with the bloggers that they believe will read and review the book. It's an extra bonus if the blogger and publisher already have a working relationship.
Just recently I was shot down for a title I had been dying for and while I did feel bummed, I also felt happy when several of my blogger friends received this very book.
It's been a learning curve for me. To recognize that in the past 9 months I have come so far as a book blogger and that I can only go up from here. To know that I am good enough.I am a good person. Getting or not getting ARC's/e-ARC's do not define me.
Have you dealt with ARC envy?